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Nienna_Ringeril
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Country: United States
State: Mississippi
Birthday: 5/14/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: Myself and my true form, those I love, what once was, is, and shall be, and reaching my ever heightening my dreams. Reaching a sense of understanding about my spirituality...knowing who I am.
Expertise: Expertise is held in the hands of the expert. The one that is called the expert can not truly call himself an expert, for any true recognition of his or her expertise, he or she must be called an expert by the common people. The common people will only call the expert in question an expert if in their minds they see him or her as an expert. I shall not name any of my expertise, that is up to you.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Entertainment
Message: message me
AIM:  amarieancalime75
MSN: amarieancalime@hotmail.com
Yahoo:  amarieancalime@yahoo.com
Member Since:
12/27/2003
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| I need to be patient.
I need to wait this out and be patient.
There's nothing I can do about his distance right now, he needs it and wants it and it's nothing against me.
I just need to be patient.
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| Wow I haven't posted here in forever. Well, it'll be my diary for now.
I feel like he doesn't care, and he won't. He wants me behind him and wants to push me away because of what he did to me. He's running away from me because he can't face the shame.
It hurts more than I can tell to be punished for something I didn't do. I'm not even angry with him. I don't want to dwell on this. I want to be his friend. I hate that he's pushing me away, hurting me more, because he can't deal with it. He's not on the receiving end. He shouldn't be doing this. If anything, the roles should be reversed.
But I hate long drawn out conflict. I want to forgive, forget, and move on. I've forgiven. I can't quite forget. And moving on is not anything I want to do without him as a friend. I don't want to think of him this way forever.
I hate everything right now. I'm jealous because he can call a friend and hang out, and I can't. I'm stuck at home, restless, anxious, sleepless. I have no 'real' close friends here that I can just escape with.
This is me right now. It felt good to let it out. I'd tell him, but he wants nothing to do with me. It isn't fair.
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| My Current Status:
Wearing: boy shorts and a pink tank top
Songs I listened to while writing this post: Missing - Evanescence, Solitude - Evanescence
Mood: highly upset
I hate people...I really feel just like...
And this is going to sound emo but god damnit I don't care, I don't fucking care. Alright, I'm emo, whatever, if that makes you feel better fine!
I'm so tired of being so lonely I'm tired of being unaccepted I'm tired of...life right now. I'm tired of San Diego, I'm tired of Serra, I'm tired of people here...
I didn't ASK for my town to be destroyed by a hurricane. I didn't ask to be moved to a new place in my senior year, I didn't ask to leave my friends, my dance studio, my job, my school...I didn't ASK for this.
Why can't they see that? | | |
| My Current Status:
Wearing: really short gray pj shorts and a gray pj tank top
Songs I listened to while writing this post: If You're Not The One - Daniel Bedingfield, Classic Swan Lake track - Tchaikovsky, Razorblade Kiss - H.I.M., Rock Your Soul - Elisa, Fidelio Overture - Beethoven
Mood: sleepy
I just got back from Jackie's movie night.
I really could've done without. It would've been nicer to just be with Daniel, especially since I don't know if I'll be able to see him this weekend. Oh well.
What's up with life lately? Trying to get that job at Tillys, staying out of my dad's way...oh, am playing Clown in All's Well that Ends Well...
I'm really tired. lol. On goes the survey.
SUPPOSEDLY if you've seen over 135 movies, you have no life. Mark the ones you've seen. There are 309 movies on this list.
(+) Rocky Horror Picture Show
(+) Grease
(+) Pirates of the Caribbean
( ) Boondock Saints
( ) The Mexican
( ) Fight Club
( ) Starsky and Hutch
(+) Neverending Story
( ) Blazing Saddles
( )Airplane
Total: 4
( ) The Princess Bride
( ) Young Frankenstien
( ) AnchorMan: The Legend of Ron Burgandy
(+) Napoleon Dynamite
( ) Labyrinth
(+) Saw
( ) Saw II
( ) White Noise
( ) White Oleander
(+) Anger Management
(+) 50 First Dates
(+) Jason
Total: 5
( ) Scream
( ) Scream 2
( ) Scream 3
( ) Scary Movie 2
(+) Scary Movie 3
( ) American Pie
( ) American Pie 2
( ) American Wedding
Total: 1
(+) Harry Potter
(+) Harry Potter 2
(+) Harry Potter 3
(+) Harry Potter 4
( ) Resident Evil I
( ) Resident Evil: Apocalypse
(+) The Wedding Singer
( ) Little Black Book
( ) The Village
( ) Donnie Darko
(+) Lilo & Stitch.
( ) Lilo & Stitch 2
Total: 6
(+) Finding Nemo
(+) Finding Neverland
( ) Signs
(+) The Grinch
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
(+) White Chicks
(+) Butterfly Effect
(+) Thirteen Going on 30
( ) I, Robot
Total: 6
(+) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
( ) Universal Soldier
(+) A Series Of Unfortunate Events
( ) Along Came Polly
(+) Deep Impact
( ) KingPin
(+) Never Been Kissed
(+) Meet The Parents
(+) Meet the Fockers
( ) Eight Crazy Nights
(+) Joe Dirt
Total: 7
(+) A Cinderella Story
( ) The Terminal
(+) The Lizzie Mcguire movie
(+) Passport to Paris
( ) Dumb & Dumber
( ) Dumb & Dumberer
( ) Final Destination
( ) Final Destination 2
( ) Final Destination 3
(+) Halloween
( ) The Ring
( ) The Ring 2
( ) Precinct 13
Total: 4
( ) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
( ) Practical Magic
(+) Chicago
( ) Ghost Ship
(+) From Hell
(+) Hellboy
(+) Secret Window
( ) I Am Sam
( ) The Whole Nine Yards
( ) The Whole Ten Yards
Total: 4
(+) The Day After Tomorrow
( ) Child's Play
(+) Bride of Chucky
(+) Ten Things I Hate About You
(+) Just Married
( ) Gothika
( ) Nightmare on Elm Street
(+) Sixteen Candles
(+) Remember the Titans
(+) Coach Carter
(+) Bad Boys
(+) Bad-Boys2
Total: 9
(+) Bad Boys 2
( ) Joy Ride
( ) Se7en
( ) Ocean's Eleven
( ) Ocean's Twelve
( ) Identity
( ) Lone Star
( ) Bedazzled
( ) Predator I
( ) Predator II
TOTAL: 1
(+) Independence Day
( ) Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
( ) Darkness Falls
( ) Christine
(+) ET
( ) Children of the Corn
(+) My Boss' daughter
(+) Maid in Manhattan
( ) Frailty
Total: 4
( ) Best Bet
(+) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(+) She's All That
( ) Calendar Girls
( ) Sideways
( ) Mars Attacks
( ) Event Horizon
(+) Ever After
(+) Forrest Gump
( ) Big Trouble in Little China
Total: 4
( ) X-men
(+) X-men2
(+) Spider-Man
(+) Spider-Man 2
( ) Sky High
( ) Jeepers Creepers
( ) Jeepers Creepers 2
(+) Catch Me If You Can
( ) The Others
(+) Freaky Friday
( ) Reign of Fire
( ) Cruel Intentions
( ) Cruel Intentions 2
(+) The Hot Chick
Total: 6
( ) Swimfan
(+) Miracle
(+) Old School
(+) The Notebook
( ) K-Pax
(+) Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(+) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(+) Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
(+) Walk to Remember
( ) Boogeyman
Total: 7
(+) Hitch
( ) The Fifth Element
(+) Star Wars Episode I The Phantom Menace
(+) Star Wars Episode II Attack of The Clones
(+) Star Wars Episode III Revenge of The Sith
(+) Star Wars Episode IV A New Hope
(+) Star Wars Episode V The Empire Strikes Back
(+) Star Wars Episode VI Return of The Jedi
(+) Troop Beverly Hills
( ) Swimming with Sharks
Total: 8
(+) Air Force One
( ) For Richer or Poorer
( ) Trainspotting
( ) People Under the Stairs...
( ) Blue Velvet
(+) Sound of Music
(+) Parent Trap
(+) Parent Trap Re-make
( ) The Birds
(+) The Terminator
(+) Terminator-2
(+) T-3
Total: 7
( ) Empire Records
( ) SLC Punk
(+) Meet Joe Black
(+) Nightmare Before Christmas
( ) The Silence of the Lambs
( ) Sleepy Hollow
( ) I Heart Huckabees
( ) 24 Hour Party People
( ) Blood In Blood Out
Total: 2
( ) Thirteen
( ) Manic
( ) American History X
( ) Deep Blue Sea
(+) George of the Jungle
( ) Canadian Bacon
( ) Big Black Titties
(+) How High
( ) The Jackle
( ) My Little Ponys Grand Adventure
Total: 2
( ) Idle Hands
( ) 40 Year Old Virgin
(+) Without A Paddle
( ) Eurotrip
( ) Liar, Liar
( ) Office Space
(+) Monty Python And The Holy Grail
( ) Fast Times At Ridgemont High
( ) Used Cars
( ) Animal House
Total: 2
( ) Blues Brothers
( ) Great Outdoors
( ) Stripes
( ) Major League
( ) The Thing
( ) Frighteners
( ) Pitch Black
( ) Chronicles Of Riddick
( ) Stargate (The Movie)
( ) Starship Troopers
Total: 0
( ) Equilibrium
( ) Gladiator
(+) Last Samurai
( ) Dogma
( ) 12 Monkeys
( ) Alien Vs Predator
( ) Alien
( ) Aliens
( ) Alien 3
( ) Alien Ressurection
Total: 1
( ) Deer Hunter
( ) Platoon
( ) Saving Private Ryan
( ) Black Hawk Down
( ) Con Air
( ) Sin City
( ) Dark City
( ) Stephen Kings Dreamcatcher
( ) Stephen Kings IT
( ) Stephen Kings The Stand
Total: 0
( ) Stephen Kings Storm Of The Century
( ) Contact
( ) National Lampoons Vegas Vacation
( ) National Lampoons European Vacation
( ) National Lampoons Christmas Vacation
( ) National Lampoons Vacation
( ) Caddyshack
( ) Masters Of The Universe
(+) Goonies
(+) Beetlejuice
Total: 2
( ) Kung Fu Hustle
( ) Shaolin Soccer
(+) Aladdin
(+) James And The Giant Peach
(+) Emperors New Groove
(+) Prince Of Egypt
(+) Iron Giant
(+) Mulan
( ) Flight Of The Navigator
(+) Sword In The Stone
Total: 7
(+) Hellboy
( ) Hulk
( ) Usual Suspects
( ) Donnie Brasco
( ) Goodfellas
( ) Godfather Part 1
( ) Godfather Part 2
( ) Godfather Part 3
( ) One Flew Over The Cookoos Nest
( ) Blow
Total: 1
( ) Friday
( ) Next Friday
( ) Friday After Next
( ) Don’t Be A Menace
( ) Half Baked
( ) Cheech And Chong Up In Smoke
( ) Cheech And Chong Next Movie
( ) Cheech And Chong Nice Dreams
( ) Cheech And Chong Still Smokin
( ) Dead Man On Campus
Total: 0
( ) Dazed And Confused
( ) National Lampoons Senior Trip
( ) National Lampoons Loaded Weapon
( ) Super Troopers
( ) Jay And Silent Bob Strike Back
( ) Clerks
(+) Matrix
(+) Matrix Reloaded
( ) Matrix Revolutions
( ) Animatrix
Total: 2
( ) Constantine
( ) Blade
( ) Blade 2
( ) Blade Trinity
( ) Dare Devil
(+) Batman
(+) Batman Returns
(+) Batman Forever
(+) Batman And Robin
( ) Batman Begins
Total: 4
( ) Team America
(+) South Park: Bigger, Longer, and Uncut
(+) Ace Ventura Pet Detective
(+) Ace Venture: When Nature Calls
( ) Me, Myself and Irene
(+) Bruce Almighty
(+) Cable Guy
( ) Truman Show
(+) Men In Black
(+) Men In Black 2
Total: 7
( ) Evolution
(+) Jackass: The Movie
( ) Almost Heroes
( ) Beverly Hills Ninja
( ) Black Sheep
( ) Tommy Boy
( ) Dirty Work
( ) Summer School
( ) What About Bob
( ) Witches Of Eastwick
Total: 1
I have watched....114 of these movies. I have a life!
And a short attention span. | | |
| My Current Status:
Wearing: cookie monster slippers, ripped jeans, and a satiny cream colored tank top with odd detailing that Daniel loved to play with
Songs I listened to while writing this post: I like to move it! - Madagascar Soundtrack
Mood: 
So I think me and Daniel have finally stopped being retarded and just accepted everything.
This afternoon was REALLY good for us.
Auditions for All's Well that Ends Well were today, but I couldn't go! Ms. Howell better let me audition still lol, these things never take just one day. I really want Clown. Do NOT really want Helen, because the lines are too long lol. I hate long parts in Shakespeare, I have more fun with the little characters that float around and are just funny lol. But I'll take whatever part.
I'm soooo tired lol. I want to go to sleeeeeeeeep! But I have to do Stats with Ashley. grrrrr...stupid math.
Oh well.
kay bye!
Oh wait...
I like to move it move it! Woo!
This song is GREAT for instant cheering ups! *dances* | | |
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